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cw for the briefest mention of suicidal ideation

[tracedfeelings]

i don't handle everything on my own
there's airi
akito too
but sometimes

[ nightmares of her disastrous entrance exam rush in like a red tide. memories of yukihira's class make her so anxious she feels sick. disappearing never stops being an option no matter how much she's determined to live.

and while her friends and family more or less know the whole story, it's rare for someone outside of niigo to shine the spotlight directly into her eyes, force her to blink away the sudden pressure behind them. it takes some time for ena to properly reply. ]

it can be really painful
but singing with niigo always helps
so even if it's mafuyu writing the lyrics we're all being heard
if that makes sense

[fibrillate]

[they don't reply for a moment, but the read notification still comes through. this is difficult. ena's a friend, but ena is half their age, and the techniques that might work with a peer won't work here. they need to be gentle without handling her with kid gloves. it could never be easy, but no one said it would be.]

I don't mean to sound insensitive, Ena.
But I was torn from my support network when I came here... and I had to rebuild as much as I could.
You're part of it, Mizuki is, everyone I know now is. And there are people I trust to help bear my burdens who weren't there in New Gate.

Singing with Niigo helps. But do you have an Akito here? Do you have an Airi?
Someone who can help you without judging you?
And are you talking to them, if you do?